Background

OK, for all of you who don't know me that well, heres a lil background. I currently live in Jacksonville, work at Ruby Tuesdays, have a bf that I love dearly and am a very outgoin, friendly person. Lets start with the relationship. I have been with my bf for 6 months now.I do love him, but we don't get along that well a lot of the time. It seems that no matter if somethings my fault or not, when we have an argument, it almost always gets turned around and I have to apologize like its my fault. Well, hes gettin out of the marine corp soon I guess. Hes supposed to be gettin out on a Med discharge, but I'm not really sure whats goin on there. He wants me to move to Missouri with him when he gets out, but I don't know whats goin on there either. I want to, but I don't know if our relationship is strong enough to survive much longer. he says he wants to marry me and that I'm the best girl hes ever been with, but I just wish he would act like it sometimes. Hes not the affectionate type, I know, but I am. And I wish he would show a lil more affection than he usually does. I work and I work hard for the money I make, and I want to be able to save it so I can pay off bills and be able to buy things I want. But half the time I can't cause he blows all his money so I have to always give him money so that always leaves me broke. there are all these red flags that say why we shouldn't be together, but how do you leave someone you love so much, it would break your heart and devastate you to walk away, or even them walkin away. But thats a lil background on me. There will be more to come later.